disparities of separation anxieties

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the marriage of academics and the arts

ibyang kyopo korean korean

the vocabularies being created...

a generation rising up from weariness of standing still in white

sideways glances

... taking it all in

we are here we are here

here we are

... blowing up the blogosphere

we are here

... lucky

pitiful

ping pong balls

... (i could sit at this coffeeshop for something like ever and a day)

... (ive) so many questions
of what is and will be

artists are the first voice she tells me

... first voices...

conduits

translating academia for the masses

academia listening to these first voices for what is being said

"is dual citizenship just another bandaid for an unstoppable wound?"

i used to think loss could only be claimed by us

(father forgive such arrogance)

... i used to think there could be some kind of solution for a thing for which there can be no absolution only... only...

reconciliation.

so this is what we walk towards

... the reconciling of ourselves

of our parents both blood and legal

... how are we supposed to fix a thing when we're the ones who were torn away?

but who else will?

malcom x and martin luther king jr rose to the challenge

and now we rise to ours

... one in forty eight

legislations...

korea you ask us to fight for you in your armies before the age of 30
but i cannot help but ask

"why should we fight for you when you did not fight to keep us?"
"what is it that we would be defending? when you left us so without defense... a lifetime of building our own walls that now we work to deconstruct"

yes

i like to party and rock the mic loud

yes

i like the beauty of the svelte in high heeled black boots click clacking down the streets

yes

i like to be inane

but why im here
is not for frivolities

im here for my own
reconciling
with a past that cannot should not
be changed...

you ask me what if everyday

ask me the impossible

when there is no answer

... so i work to help create the language for the questions.

what ifs will only make us crazy

one in forty eight

ask me how we are reconciling our statistics
ask me how we are working past the scotch tape of bandaids

... one in forty eight we are trying to increase the gap of such a ratio
so that one day it could become rare to none

... one day

ask me what i believe in

and i will tell you point blank truth that is me

- i believe in one days

i believe in the marriage of three worlds and words

- theirs
- yours
- ours

... i believe in hoping for everything and never giving up

so inbetween the nights you see me in

there are another set of hours spent daily reconciling the anxieties of my and our separations