morning lovesongs of want

coffee comes slowly
churning out the veins
spluttering in the lungs
whilst smoke drifts in

and the preacher man
he's behind his sunday aye-em
pulpit
whilst all the sober people bow their heads
dreaming of coffee
and
praying for the
smokers

morning is the end of night
and i have one too many tune-less songs to sing

drained my well textured mug of its deep mocha black brown
beans from guatemala
tobacco approved by HRM ERHII
"designed in london made in korea"

me
designed in america made in korea
approved by holt
jeans from someplace obscene in that urban hipster kinda way

"to be so satisfied
and yet so full of...
anger
and
confusion"

"to remember why it is you came here"

"to remember
remember
remember"

fuck remembering
id like a mug of fermentation
and forget everything for a few more nights

"to be the one who captures your own loneliness and fill it"

fuck me having to fill my own anything
i want
a houseload of servants
a harem
and a bar that never runs dry
to fill whatever
whenever
i just
think it

and i want
a
house

and the income to own one

but the morning
is full
of sounds

su-yoon washing out last night's container of rice
water makes so many sounds

i want to be thigh high in snow
watching the moon rise in the alps
when everything is so beautiful
(full of beauty
beauty that is full)
that kind of fullness of beauty that leaves you so
aware of just how
in tune and
singular
you
are

i want a cat
that i never have to take care of
that never sheds
that only purrs
and places its paw upon my chest
and tells me that i am
perfect
without a chesire grin

morning is full of shuffling
of bags packed
ready to flip out the door
time away that i dont want
but
need

to re-order
re-pack
my chaotic
insane
fragmented
jump from thought to thought
word to word
random tangent
somehow all strung together
good god-damned lovely
hectic
ways

and return to
the way that morning is...

one bird singing
another in response

no sounds of traffic in a 12 million person city

hearing this

i cant help but think

having filled myself with guatemalan beans and nicotine

sitting behind my own literary litany of pulpit-ing

preaching to no one but myself

the shuffling
the 270 sounds of water
the 2 birds in conversation

and just for a moment

i am in want of

nothing

with 15 minutes to spare

and a love for my own word truncated : "insatiabilities"